What's Topic! | Hiding

HIDING….

I know that’s a simple word and you guys might understand what that means. But if that’s what you mean, you don’t have the same words as mine. I’m saying that we as people are hiding in this world, especially in our lives. 

I’m a 16 years old girl who is looking for myself, for who I really am.  I’m living in a small house with a brother and parents. I experienced a lot of things. The first and the worst experiences that has ever happened to me is when I got bullied. Yeah… I’ve been bullied for more than 2 years and I couldn’t handle that. I got really depressed and tried so hard to find something that would cure me.But I couldn’t find it and since then…im hiding from my life. I’ve been pretending to be someone who is not me. And it worked. People started liking me for not who I really am. And it made me more depressed. I found something that would distract me from my world. Social medias and strangers that I meet online. It helped me a bit. I found amazing and weird people online. I learnt a lot from them. They are just like my private teachers but not official.

But im growing up. I started to understand what I’ve been doing since the whole time. What I did wrong and what I did right. I did both. I’m hiding from my reality by pretending like im in a movie. I go out of my room and be someone else. I find friends and talk to them and be fun.  I’m like something that stuck in the middle of the ocean and about to drown. Life is like balloons. I have dreams, hopes, purposes in life and I keep thinking.. should I let them go or still hold onto it until the balloons are blazed and surprise all the people around? If I let the balloons go, I still have the chances to catch them but that’s if they are still not too far above me . But if I keep holding onto it… the balloons will still be on my hands and I don’t have to catch them . but I have to keep trying so people wont take over my balloons . If you understand that…