Live Journal | April 3, 2016

Dear Secret Admirers..

I’m not saying that today is my worst day because my another days has been worse than this one. I told my mom about the accident that happened to my friend, Gemal. I don’t know exactly what happened but I told her that Gemal got his ribs broken. But when I asked again to Devi, she said that Gemal was fine and his motorcycle had…hmm.. u know..

My mom started blaming me for being a journalist on  School Update. Honestly, I don’t like it because its not true. She was wrong. She kept blaming Bang Sam and my senior. She doesn’t know exactly what we do. Every single words she said about what I do, is totally wrong and made me wanna laugh. Heres what happened since yesterday.

1.       On April 2, 2016, I left home earlier at 7 am to go to JHS 20, 21, 23 and 34 to promote about our event “ Kegiatan Outbond dalam pemecahan rekor muri”. I don’t do that without any purpose. Each member of School Update who can make people join the event will get money Rp.5000/person who registers. Can you imagine if there is 50 people register to join the event and its because of me? I can get Rp.250.000/ day.  Or idk.

So.. I went there with Bayu, Rani and Angga. We failed actually because the schools asked for a permission letter from RTV itself. Then.. I went to “FUTSAL GAME” to watch Angga and other members of School update of SMK Mutu play soccer there. After then we went to Fran’s house to pick him up. Because If one of School Update members didn’t come that day, our ID Cards will get collected and can not be returned until all the members attend the meeting. And.. we cant have our id cards now. Don’t you know how crazy and hard is that to find our id cards? We went to the forest at 2 AM without jacket or sweeter and looked for our id cards like a stupid person? I am pissed off because I don’t have my id card now.

Let’s continue. When we got there, Fran’s mom gave us some Coca Cola. Angga and Bayu drank it and I didn’t, Rani went to the toilet. Angga told us not to be too formal or scared and just act normally because the environment where Fran lives, is.. idk exactly. Angga just said “ this environment used to be a place when there was so many drugs here” and when I asked what he was saying, he just told me to shut up , so did Bayu.

2.       Fran, Bayu and Angga rode my motorcycle and I rode Angga’s with Rani. When we got to the EO office at Pelajar St, I fell off the motorcycle because of that stupid sand. And I was riding too fast. Rani and I fell off and Angga jumped off the motorcycle and ran to help me and Rani. It doesn’t really matter . We just laughed after then. So did they all.

3.       I rode Rani back home . Her home is at Kratama St. I did that because she also rode me home last night.  When she just rode me home , she got accident. I totally blamed myself for that.  She got injuried

4.       About today.. my mom keeps being mad at me and hating me because of me being a journalist, because of me being want to be a journalist when I grow up BUT… she was completely wrong. Has she ever…ever asked me what I wanted to be when Im older? NOT EVEN ONCE. She keeps talking and telling me what she wants me to be which I don’t want to be. She wants me to work at Pertamina or to be an “insinyur”. Man.. I don’t even like science. Im good at social. Im a public speaker. Im good at learning languages. I understand French and German and no one believes me about that. I never want to be a presenter or work as a journalist. I don’t want to be a journalist but I love working as a journalist. Disciplined , on time, hard worker and never gives up. That’s what I love.   School Update is just like my 2^nd family. That is where I can be distracted and forget about my problems that im facing. I get friends who I can talk with, i can laugh with.

5.       My Mom keeps telling me that my dreams that ive been dreaming of and planning were just dreams and would never come true. Honestly.. it knocks me down. Can’t she just understand what I love and what I don’t? Ah.. for your information.. when I was at 5^th- 6^th grade, 8^th grade, my friends bullied me. Trust me.. those were my darkest time but now… Im standing tall and feel no fears.

6.       She said that I didn’t have plans for my future but I do. I want to study at UNRI, Binus University or luckily at New York university with Scholarship or SNPTN. I don’t want to be a journalist. I want to work at MUN or job that has to do with International Relations.     I want to live in a 2 story house and spend my spare time writing . im still working on my first novel. Its called Hiding. I think it will turn out super cool and deeply meaningful.

I think that’s it. Im not in a good mood to write anything but this is the live journal . Im happy of being a member of School Update. Ive got bestfriends ( Angga, Bayu, and Rani) and I learn a lot about life when I look at them. I wish my parents could understand that. God.. this is so embarrassing. Im too emotional. LOL