Live Journal | April 21, 2016

Dear Secret Admirers....


Talking about friendship.., i dont know. Im not sure now what's the meaning of friendship. I've heard all the crap about friendship and it is half true and half wrong. I had 5 bestfriends. Yeah i had. We called our selves as Be The Best. We were all fine until our teacher told us to change our chairmates. The first 2 days were good but after days and days, it all changed. We are not like we used to be. We got in a fight and didnt talk to each other until now. It all feels awkward and annoying. One of my ex bestfriends, she has a boyfriend but she didnt tell me about it. My other ex bestfriends have boyfriends too and they never told me about it.

im feeling like... i hate everyone. I cant hate anyone but i feel like i have to. They betray me, ignore me and kick me out of their life. I dont know what i did wrong. Everyone is taking photos together, me and my new bestfriends ( there are 5. Me, Chantika, Delvia, Dea, and Amel) We are just standing over here, watching them taking photos like this world is only theirs and they dont see anyone else like us.

The first time i entered this High School life, everything was going so fine. I got all my guy friends and girl friends and we laughed at our stupid jokes. But then life is changing. Im on my own world, like a barbie doll in her fake house. Everything and everyone is FAKE.