Live Journal| April 20, 2016

Dear Secret Admirers...

Do you ever feel like the world seems unfair with you? When you wake up, all you want is the world to stop than to think about the worst days that happen to you? You are looking out of the window, watching a bird looking at you but then you close the window like you close your life from the reality. I'm feeling like there's a big hole in my life that makes me feel empty everytime i think about the reality. I need to find what is missing from my life. I experience everything to figure it out but after i experience everytime, i feel guilty and emptier. I hope i can figure it out soon or i'll be empty and useless for life.

Talking about dreams that will make me feel better, i'm not sure i can survive or reach them.
Here are a few of my dreams or goals that i really want in my life :

1. Been all around the world with parents/ guy who i love
2. Meet everyone who i really want to meet ( it depends though)
3. Get a job in UN or CIA ( job that has to do with International Relations)
4. Build a company
Thats al i can think now.