Live Journal | May 12,2016

Dear Secret Admirers,

Do you know what? I think today is the best day i have ever had! Or i dont know. I've had the other best day. So this morning, i texted him. Oh, sorry. I forgot to tell you about it . He's my senior. The first time i saw him was then the class performance of English Day. He looked so tough. He was doing the taekwondo moves and since then, it has moved my heart and i fell for him. I started to stalk him and get to know more about him. His facebook, his ask.fm, his BBM, his Line and more. I know i seem like an easy girl but im not. I love him but unfortunately everything isn't going so well. He has a girlfriend. At least that what i found on his ask.fm or maybe its his ex girlfriend. I dont know im not sure.

So this morning, i just got to school. I was walking to my class when i realised that he just passed by me. I was shocked and happy. He walked toward me, i looked at him and he looked at me. I was so hard to pretend like i didnt feel anything about him but i couldnt because of his cute smile. you know what i did? I screamed! i fucking cant believe what i've done until now. My bestfriends told me that he looked at me with a weird look. I was so upset. Why the heck i screamed!!Around 9 or 10 am, my bestfriends forced me to text him on BBM. i was so afraid to do that. So i asked my friend to do it for me. She did. An hour later, he still didnt text me back. i cried because i know that he doesnt like me or he might feel disgusted of me. I cried and was in the bad mood for 4 or 3 hours! But then at 1 or 2 pm, my bestfriend, Delvia told me that he texted me back. I didnt read all the messages but i was too excited and happy and i screamed! I was screaming so loud till my friends threw me things. I was okay with it because i was freaking happy. Then i looked all the messages. Here's what he said:

Yea?

My phone isn't working

If you wanna chat me, here's my number 08********

You cant imagine how crazy i was. All what i was thinking is , he can not like me. He texted me back because he felt pity on me. I have a crush on him. My senior who has a girlfriend. but if he is reading this, i just wanna say that i really like him. In a different way. A good way i mean. More than word "like" or "have a crush on" .